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its been long!! 

o's. o's o's. 

the notebook on twitter is just so true. almost every tweet there reflects me. 

i hate the feeling of uncertainty and having to guess everything. 

and i just did something to my face its damn ugly. regret it. but im going to like my face even more. 

probably i should type more in this stupid shit. 

to improve my language hahaha. 

i realized when you meet new ppl. 

it just shows.. how are you a difference. 

and how similar you are to your current friends. 

i believe everybody goes thru the process of being backstabbed or something even more worse. 

but in fact i never really get to know the feeling of backstabbing. of course its a good thing but. i hope theres no backstabbing about me.

and i really hate pretending. pretending im alright pretending that its just another joke. 

like what ive came across in tweets. or fb. 

'girls fall in love with what they hear and guys fall in love with what they see. so girls put on makeup and guys lie' soooooooooo true. 

cant help but to admit that twitter actually tweet sense haah.

reallllly i found alot of nice quotes from there. #twitterfan1314 HAHAH.

i dont know why but this is getting emotional.

as we grow older there are alot of things to know to understand and to be in alot of shoes. if you get what i mean. 

i hate the fact that as we grow older, the bigger the gap seems to be.

its weird having brothers yet not talking to them and we're like some.. strangers. 

i dont know what colours they like and all the other basic stuffs. 

but. i think and i feel that they should be the one talking to me what.. since im the youngest. 

or should i take the initiative. but its going to be awkward. 

im going to whine until 12 then i start with my fnn again.

it sucks to be procrastinating when you know youve unfinished work to do. 

and you just keep procrastinating~

and i thought of something which my mum said before.

'last time when you are still in kindergarden, the first thing you do when you reach home is to touch your homework and finish it. but now?' 

have the urge to say this but i didnt la. shouldve say it right ohwell~

'last time the homework is like a piece of cake. and all i have to do is spend 10mins and my homework is done but for now i have tons of things to deal with. academic, friendship, family, vb. i know i suck at juggling my time. but i have to learn how to crawl before i can walk. im learning, so dont pressurize me anymore. i need some encouragement instead.'

ahhhh nice paragraph :)

why do we have to study.

i hate studying. i know its for our own good but whyyyyyyy. 

and as i come to realize.. some teachers are really just fucking annoying.

they pressurize you, saying that its for my own good. but what have they done to help. nothing. thanks alot. 

i want to play vb all day long. its.. a passion.

i wish that studying is my passion too but. too bad ^^ 

my mum keep saying that if i use my brain cells for vb on my studies i cfm damn smart. 

oi mi you sure not. hahahaha.

i love my mum *twist

though she nags and pms and vent her temper at me.

heh but i know she loves me too! 

im getting everything that i want. 

but im not giving the results that my parents want. 

and theres just so much things to whine about.

1209!!!!! 

should i cut my hair........................ 

you've the lips on an angel, you're one in a million. i need you now if you realize. and you shall be my last goodbye. 

CIAOOOOOOO