xzz

purposely put this bigbig.

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"Rememmber, studies is more important. Don't let anything affect you now."

some turtle typed this on msn just now.

so what if i tried to not let anything to affect me?

so what if i tried to not think about it?

theres so much thing around me that reminds me.

remind me of how we trained hard to get the west zone champs.

how we promised one another that we want to make it to the nationals top4 or better, finals.

and even on the day where we're going to play with dunman, we had a conflict.

why?(solved alr la)

all because we cared about this, the nationals.

every match we tried to perform to our best,

but out of the so many match,

there was only 2 match that all our standard was there, recieving, spiking, service etc.

why must heaven play this prank on us?

why, for every match we cant perform to our best?

why jiaolian cannot encourage us and say 'nevermind, we can do it for the next match, dont give up. :)' 

why is that only thai coach can do it.

and he made us so happy even though his trgs were really hardcore with all the 10balls, jumping the white rope, weight trainings, spiking 10nice balls and etc. but we still enjoyed it.

why.

why are all our trgs are like wasted.

how hard we cried when we lost, nobody could force a smile out on our faces.

no matter how others asked us to cheer up, we cant.

after hearing jl saying all those words to us,

it feels like, he's trying to say that we deserved this. in chinese, huo gai.

not even some encouragement sentences from him. for even after teaching us like 4 years?!

is this what we're supposed to get? after clinching the west zone champs for him, and making him proud for it.

so after all these that i've typed out, i seriously dont know who/ what to blame for our situation.

ourselves? coach? heaven? unlucky-ness?

shit. this is impossible.

and ps, why must common test be next week?

dont even think that i'll have the mood to study.

oh, and ytd.

was the last trg for b girls'10.

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screamed, but when we da dui, the mood just wasnt right.

why all sad things must rush into our lives.

or rather, my life.

not having my batch ard for trg for the next 1 year.

wonder how mjh made it thru.

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so i'll start to cry on next monday, next tues, next thurs, next fri, next next tues, next next thurs, next next fri and so on and so forth.

ha. joke.

so tell me, what should i do if i start to miss you all?

dearest cgirls'08+mjh. )':

cant believe im going to cry soon after i typed all this out. 

but nope, im going to save my tears for monday.

to B girls'10: 

lets all enjoy playing as b girls'10 for the last time on monday okay. 

make it a good one. i know we can.

 and after that, you all must spam pictures with me okay ):

for memories sake.

and to let me browse thru again when i miss you ppl. ):

I.LOVE.EVERY.SINGLE.ONE.OF.YOU.